#this is soooooo much fun to think about and genuinely. truly. i love this

[polysucks]

hey! what are some of your favourite asoiaf fanfics that you've read (if you feel ok sharing)?

Say less. I came prepared. All of these links are on Ao3 and almost all are rated Explicit because I think spicy things are fun. It’s not all sexy tho. Sometimes it’s rated E for Emotions. Or E for. Like. Life things.

Well. As you all know by now, I am Sansan trash. So most of these are sansan unless otherwise declared. Oh and everyone is of consenting adult age.

A Gift by 3rdstarksistr is my fucking goat. This fic? This fic. Right here. After 15 years of browsing ao3 anonymously, this is the fic that forced me to make an ao3 account. AFTER FIFTEEN YEARS. And it’s being actively updated. This makes me lose my mind, bro. LOSE MY MIND.

Essentially AU where Sandor doesn’t leave at BoTBB and Sandor bargains with Sansa for her body to take her across the narrow sea to safety. I can’t do the story justice. It sounds bad when I describe it. But Sansa is so so soooooo sweet and eager and Sandor is like. It’s hard to describe bc he could totally be triggering to some, but it’s very evident that he cares so deeply for her health, her safety, her happiness, but on the surface? Fuckin asshole. A real Sweet and Smol girl with HUGE SCARY DOG PRIVILEGES dynamic. With some excellent plot, too, that feels very-in-world.

There’s some big loss of virginity, dubcon, and some kiiiinky ass shit here (respectfully) but genuinely love love love this depiction of Sandor. He’s so loving, but also so rough, and he cares so much. I’m trash I know I’m sorry I’m sorry.

The author truly takes my breath away. The writing is so immersive, so catered for the reader, so vivid. It reads so naturally, like the author is painting a picture for you. Also madly in love with Pate, Sandor’s squire. What a cutie patootie. I’ll buy 4, thanks.

For Rent by Gendervny of course I got rep the fucking homie! My beloved @theeironprice wrote this fuckin thramsay masterpiece (it’s ongoing). I wouldn’t recommend it if I didn’t genuinely love it. Now, a fair warning, it is not for everyone. Definitely pay attention to the tags, because this author does not fuck around. The dove’s not dead but. It ain’t sleeping. Ifykyk. (It’s a compliment I promise)

This fuckin gem is so near and dear to my heart. It is a 2004 au with some amazing pop culture references sprinkled in as a little treat for the reader. It’s like the author leaves M&Ms on each page for u to go “OOH CANDY” And it gives u a little shot of dopamine every time I promise you. It’s actually what inspired this doodle of Sansa and Arya I did that you dorks seem to love so much and it makes me microwave all of these characters on fucking repeat in the year 2004. As a 2000s kid, like, this hits so hard. So close to home in the best way possible. And once you read about Theon listening to the Smiths, it just becomes canon to you. Of fucking course Theon listens to The Smiths. What a fucking loser.

A harmless addiction by rummy_cat is just stupid fun. Point blank. Yeah, it’s a sansan modern au. Look, I’m not a modern au person. I truly am not. So if I’m recommending it, it’s worth a read. Sansa is a 20-something who purchased a piece of shit house and is way over her head with her HGTV dreams. Sandor is a poor-bedside-manner, 3-stars-out-of-five on Angie’s list handy man—who also does in-story-equivalent of Onlyfans on the side. Now imma be real with you. I’m a sucker for a romcom cliche. If there’s a meet-cute, or a situation where they’re forced to share one bed, or anything else you can picture happening in a stupid straight to dvd Katherine heigl movie? Say less im already there.

So this is one of those fics that you genuinely don’t even need to know wtf is happening in the asoiaf world like at all. It would be a lovely standalone romcom book. It helps if you know who the main players are like Sansa, Sandor, Podrick, Bronn and Arya, but everyone is kind of a loose caricature. Usually I can’t stand this shit. But they’re so endearing, and written with so much heart and humanity and it genuinely feels like a HBO style romcom sitcom thing with a lot of situational humor. Also like??? Sandor is so endearing. Handyman Sandor and sweet little shut in with a secret potty mouth and a (very mild) porn addiction Sansa is to die for. And the first sex scene? Hysterical. But also hot. And bronn IS SO CUTE AS COMEDIC RELIEF. also gotta rep my man Tony the Italian who literally only shows up for like 3 paragraphs as situational humor narrative fodder and I would genuinely lay my life on the line to protect that man. I actually haven’t finished this one so I have no idea how it ends but genuinely you will be hanging on every chapter. The author is so engaging.

Quenched by Rambo holy fuck dude. Holy fuck dude. This? This shit right here? Holy fuck dude. Cw for dubcon bc well they’re both drunk and there’s some very tasteful feet stuff (if you know me, I am NOT a feet-stuff person. Periodt.) a lovely quick little horny read where Sandor pushes Sansa’s boundaries (consensually) and they are just so sexually compatible with one another. It’s very sweet. Some really lovely horny visuals surrounding period-accurate attire (I am a SUCKER for period accurate attire)

What I love the most about it is that it’s not framed like “character A does things to character B” nah. While Sandor may be doing the bulk of the “work” 👀 the reader gets to see an equal amount of Sandor’s enjoyment as Sansa’s. I love a dynamic where partners get off to their partner enjoying themselves bc it just feels so realistic. Like have you ever been with someone you care for deeply? That their enjoyment fuels your enjoyment, sexual or platonic. That shit is REAL. this author is a PAINTER.

Nine nights by Sarah C this. Was. Soooooo. Much. FUN. It’s a “oops we’re snowed in at an inn and we have to share a room with one bed what r we gonna dooooooo????” trope that is a huge romp and a half. I loved how realistic this was. I love how the author included real life details that are period accurate. Gross little details that aren’t “gross,” but every day real life things! For example, there is a scene where Sandor falls asleep before Sansa and she’s staring at him and just kinda disappointed bc she’s romanticized everything around her and Sandor is just so real. She’s staring at him and unable to sleep and he is snoring and he rolls over and farts in his sleep and she SCOWLS AND SCOFFS and I locked my phone and kicked my feet because it was just so cute and well written and REAL!!!! SO REAL!!!!! And Sansa gets to girl talk with a side character who is also a teenage girl and she deserves that. She sooooo deserves that. We miss Jeyne in this house. also there’s a spicy public fingering scene that is just— I’m blushing like a slut rn 10/10 amazing.

A Tough hide and a tender heart is a lovely little samsa quick read that is rated G and only 800+ words. It was the fic that was attributed to my samsa doodle. I don’t really ship it, but it was so so sooooo cute to think about. This fic is essentially Samwell Tarly being just so fucking sweet as usual. Just a complete gentleman. To Sansa at the Wall. Nothing even truly happens. It’s just Sam being a perfect fucking gentleman and admiring on Sansa. Honestly will give even most hardened assholes sweet little butterflies in their belly. Like I say, not even my ship, but it’s just genuinely so cute.

And I CANNNNNNNN NOT for the fuckin life of me find this fic that tells the “real story” of how the Vale was won. It’s a total “Yeah, Visenya fucked MILF GOAT Sharra Arryn and that’s how Visenya got the Vale to surrender” fic that was. P E A K. but for whatever reason, it’s wiped from my browser history.

I hope you find some of these fun :,) I know I did. Sorry it’s so much sansan I read other things too I promise!

[raisedbythetv89]

Ok ooooook OK SO.

Spike was literally made for Buffy because he was made for and by Drusilla, and Buffy and Dru are the same person:

Innocent, kind-hearted young girls, with special gifts that cause them to carry more guilt/burden than others and they are used/abused/traumatized by angelus/angel, then neglected and abandoned, with Spike being there to pick up the pieces and nurture, care for, and love them the best he can to help them move past their angel trauma (which is actually an impossible task with Drusilla because of the sire aspect but isn’t with Buffy)

WHICH is why I believe William’s first act as a vampire was to try and save his mother. He was literally created to be Dru’s knight. Not only her protector but her healer. Which is why his first instinct when it should be all about blood lust is instead, to heal his mother who he still loves even as a vampire. I mean even Dru, a certified nutcase, is like you wanna do WHAT?!?! When Spike tells her his plan to save his mom😹

This is also why I believe angel trying to mold Spike into his image never really took or rather Spike was able to break free from it. Angel was created by darla for the intent of death, torment and destruction.

Spike was created to care for and love Dru. Which required an OBSCENE amount of patience, determination, humility, and love of a challenge. Which is why he was so intrigued by slayers, another seemingly impossible task - but the joy/fun was in the TRYING, the thrill of the unknown and the unpredictability of it all. Which are all the traits he needed to be there for both Dru and Buffy while also ensuring he never gives up on them as long as they want him there, and then some lol.

IM FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

Because also this is soooooo not where I planned on going with this but “I was made to love you” episode title is now drawing in the connection of, is this why Spike didn’t initially see the problem with the Buffy-Bot until he saw the reaction of Buffy herself who often acts as his moral compass as he relearns what is “good” after 100+ years living by vamp code because him AS A HUMAN, in his vulnerable, dejected and devastated state was killed and made into a vampire for the sole purpose of loving and caring for Drusilla selflessly, without regard for himself, much like the bots were!! So why would he see the harm in creating something like that for himself when no one was going to die in the process and it meant he could stop fixating in the real buffy? Both of which to a vamp who’s only been trying to live by human morals again for like 14 episodes vs 120 years with NO help just trial and erroring his way through becoming a white hat which his starting point is “I would like credit for not taking advantage of bleeding disaster victims” and “what do you mean building a shrine to show how deep my devotion is and chaining you up, offering to kill my ex, and forcing you to talk to me and admit your feelings aren’t the way to do this??” 😹😹😹 like he gets it so wrong, it’s comical in season 5 because he truly is so earnest about all of it because while yes it is all for a chance with Buffy, he genuinely wants to be better for her so he can earn that chance. As he says to Riley “a fellas gotta try” after saying he doesn’t think he has a chance with her.

He was an Eleanore who desperately needed his Chidi. Which Buffy is his moral compass but she ends up being a “let them fail/push them into the deep end” kind of guide. So he makes A LOT of mistakes along the way as many of us often do in general but especially those of us who were raised by abusive parents; who in our adulthood, have to learn to discern what is healthy vs abusive to be a good person to both yourself and others and be in actual healthy relationships with boundaries and respect with zero practical experience or good instincts to go on.

NONE of this excuses any harm that Spike causes at all. That is not the point of this to say “oh he didn’t really do bad”, no he did. Spike caused a lot of harm but this perspective that I’ve finally been able to put into words is why none of the harm ends up being a deal breaker for me and many spuffys because it puts his choices in the right perspective which is not that of a human even though he looks like one a lot of the time.

Spike pre-soul, making the mistakes he makes isn’t the same as a human or a vamp with a human soul making the mistakes because he doesn’t have his human soul motivating and informing the decisions he makes. It really mimics different cultures in a lot of ways as anya really demonstrates during her wedding with all her talk of demon culture and tradition (and her own struggles to assimilate into the human world again and she HAS a human soul and xander to help her) and the initiative being VERY n*zi coded and Riley being called a bigot because he is ignorant to much of demonology. So un-souled spike has a more potential for forgiveness of his mistakes than human soul havers because he is always genuinely TRYING to do right by Buffy even when he gets it horribly wrong. And the characters in the show always hold him accountable and make him feel TERRIBLE for the mistakes he makes.

Why does he have such potential for forgiveness you ask? The best example is to think of the concept of someone trying to assimilate themselves into a new culture. We can’t expect them to blend right in perfectly and get all the culture norms right, right away (again -anya-but also a real life example - when I travel in Italy and catch up with friends there I STILL always stumble and forget they’re always gonna go in for a double cheek kiss greeting - pre covid anyway - and I KNOW it’s a thing but if I’m out of practice it takes me a while to start greeting people that way again and it makes for some AWKWARD ENCOUNTERS until I get it down😹). It takes time, and normally guidance and patience from others that spike honestly doesn’t often have except in the form of being yelled at or beat up until he gets his soul. But his willingness to TRY anyways despite failure, rejection, ridicule and cruelty. How can I not love him?? He is me, I am him!! I was also met with so much unhelpful criticism and cruelty when I was just trying to learn and do a good job.

Both as someone who is autistic and didn’t know it for a lot of life; I too felt like I was blundering through without a guide or a rule book and I was sure I was making mistakes because people would get upset but I had NO help identifying what exactly I did wrong or what to do instead. So I knew I was messing up but had to keep guessing and trying anyway and getting it wrong again and again!

And as someone raised by an emotionally distant/abusive narcissist, navigating healthy relationships became even MORE difficult and I made a lot of bad choices along the way that landed me in some awful relationships much like what spike and Buffy devolve into towards the end of season 6 because both of them are up stream without a paddle when it comes to healthy relationships, healthy coping mechanisms, and communication. They know pain, avoidance, fighting, torment, and ecstasy from always living in extremes and life or death situations (notice Buffy struggles the most in the season with no threat of the apocalypse until the last two episodes - season 6 - which is SO common for people with trauma, you really fall apart when things are low stakes)

It’s why the tenderness and gentleness of season 7 means SO MUCH. Both of them experiencing these tiny pockets of true peace with each other after everything they’ve been through individually and together. Experiencing true peace like we see from them is one of the hardest things to accomplish if you have severe trauma.

I’m always really happy when I can digest these complex themes enough to communicate why I love them so much and why they’re so important to me. The fact that this show had so much in-fighting amongst the writers and misogynists trying to make spike pathetic and accidentally making him one of the most complex characters, plus episodes based specifically on neurodivergent/queer peoples’ traumatic coming of age experiences because the parallels are SO strong there no way they’re not lol. This all means I can probably spend the rest of my life dissecting the layers of this show and learning about myself in the process and always find something new 🙃🙃🙃 and clearly I love all aspects of spuffy so god damn much as they each embody a big part of my life experiences in so many beautiful yet tragic ways.

[notiddygothgf]

OKAAAAY, finally, I have a moment to discuss.

(Although, I have a college exam tomorrow, so....)

This chapter made me simultaneously fall more in love with Aki, yet hate him even more at the same time.

The fact that he's so aware of his emotional unavailability was somewhat surprising to me. I didn't expect him to be that self-aware.

Realistically, they're in love, your honor.

The thing is, though, I feel like they BOTH know it, you know?

I don't think Aki's in a stage of "not knowing", he's in DENIAL. Lord knows sleepy Aki had me swooning.

I do enjoy the way that despite their dynamic, Aki kind of just let her yell at him and get her feelings out. He's a dominant, a lifestyle one (from what I've gathered), however, he doesn't exude control just because he has it or because it's what he prefers. He does it with her interests and care for her in mind.

I truly think that area is where BDSM as a whole receives it's negative reputation. A Dom/Sub relationship was never meant to be about controlling every aspect of someone's life just because you can. It's about trust and feeling comfortable with your partner.

Expressing your feelings, positive OR negative, isn't the "attitude" some people in the BDSM community think it is. I personally think that ideology is much too normalized, and goes against the very principles of BDSM.

In truth, I love the tension. (although, the unresolved sexual tension in the last chapter was thick enough to slice) It's just going to make it that much better when Aki gets over himself and just ADMITS IT.

Aki's getting bolder though, and I can appreciate that. He's not a situationship villain. (lord knows I've had my run-ins)

I want to leave this little tangent off by saying that this story has effectively healed me from my own shitty situationships, it feels so good to be able to relate and feel seen. (Even though Aki's situationship behavior beats the shit I deal with by a mile. It's okay, he can do whatever he wants. He's gorgeous.)

I'll be looking forward to the next chapter. (What I mean is i need it yesterday). SOOOOOO glad to have you back from the grasps of finals.

With love,

-Bae

omg i had so much fun responding to this one lol. pardon the long post! i wanted to address as many of your points as i could because you put sm time into it, and i want to reciprocate! i love love LOVE the long inboxes! ill talk about my works for hours lol.

IM SO LATE! good luck on your exam dearest, you’ll ace that shit.

Honestly i love to hate aki too, BUT I HATE THAT I CANT STAY MAD AT HIM IN THIS FANFIC UGHHHHHHHH

Yes, aki may be a toxic guy but that doesnt mean he isn’t very self aware about it! one of the things i liked about akis character going into this story is that he’s very in tune with his emotions. he knows he’s a complete trainwreck and THATS why he was so adamant about keeping y/n at bay. but, alas, what is y/n in my fanfics if not a little stupid at times. she doesnt care! she swears she can change him! can she??? (stay tuned ;)) (btw i do not condone this irl, if you’re thinking you can change your current situationship bc of this story, pls stop and abandon ship x)

I will not confirm or deny their feelings towards eachother, but there’s definitely something they both need to realize lol. 

DENIAL IS A RIVER IN EGYPT and they are both drowning in it. honestly i wish i could just push their heads together and make them smooch it out ( i totally can, but then that would take away the fun “Slow burn” aspect. i hope you all do know i was talking about an EMOTIONAL slow burn, obv not a sexual one lol (stares extra hard at chapter 5).

Sleepy aki is honestly my favorite genre of man. I personally wanted to illustrate the fact that, despite what he may say about not wanting commitment, he genuinely does feel very safe with her — in a way he hasn’t with anyone else. i think that this is the first time anyone’s ever seen through his armor, and he’s a little scared. i mean, hell, he lived his entire life raising himself.

Yes, aki took the verbal beating. Why? Because, deep down, he knows he’s a piece of shit lol. he hates the fact that he cannot be a good man (at least, he thinks he cants), so instead of hurting you, his idea is… well, also hurting you, but he can’t see that yet. it’s not about controlling her. he knows she’s a person with free will, hell he probably even WANTS her to leave and make it easier for him to walk away, but… this is a notiddygothgf fanfic after all. 

Yes, aki truly does care for the reader -- more than I think he knows what to do with. How much? Well, stay tuned.

i agree, i think that just because a character who plays the role of submissive might lash out at times, that doesn’t mean that it’s unjustified. aki knows that she’s coming from a place of care, and that’s why he’s content to listen to her rant. he knows shes right.

god, i have something great planned with the whole aki-admitting-it thing. Will he admit it? can’t confirm. what i can tell you is that it is going to be juicy.

I think that while aki has his shortcomings, he’s not a bad man (in spite of what he might think) and hes certainly not irredeemable. The question is simply — will he reedem himself?

As always, thank you for such an in depth analysis of my story! Omg it makes me feel so loved. I’m so glad to be back! I hope you love the direction i take the story in as much as i do, but again, your feedback helps me shape how i want it to go!!!!

for the record, though… aki’s pretty privilege is a bitch. cant stay mad at him for too long lol.

LOVE ALWAYS, LEO x

[lorillee]

what's your favorite and least favorite mini games from the whole series and why? it seems that mahjong is a cursed name

OK i was going to answer this message yesterday but i was running around and just did not have time. But i do have opinions and one day i WILL be making a tierlist. unfortunately this is not comprehensive because theres also a number of minigames i just havent really played enough to have a strong opinion on because as i progressed in the series i got too invested in the plot to run around and do all the side things. we WILL be going back though its just taking a while cuz ive got other stuff going on. anyways ONTO THE QUESTION

favorites: - karaoke: if youve been following my liveblogs youre probably aware that im a huge karaoke nut. i love karaoke its so important to me it makes me so happy that i can take gangsters to the karaoke bar and let them sing their hearts out its so silly its so important i love it so much - disco: genuinely i think one of the most diabolical things in the yakuza franchise is that the disco minigame never makes a comeback. which like i can appreciate given that its something that exists due to the era in which y0 is set But its also diabolical because everything about it makes me absurdly happy. friday night i think actually mightve been my first real exposure to yakuza as well - cabaret club (prior to gaiden): the cabaret club management is pretty fun but i really enjoy mostly just getting to talk to the girls theyre honestly all really funny. additionally its a really fun tool for fleshing out the pov characters as well and overall i like it quite a lot. - taxi driver: not sure how much of my liveblog you've retained so ill keep it vague but at some point there is a taxi driver minigame and like i actually adore it i think its ridiculously fun they like grade you on your driving and people skills and its a lot to keep track of but i love it. like i mentioned earlier that theres a number of minigames i havent had time to really sit down and do because i zeroed in on the plot, but i loved the taxi minigame so much i sat there and did it for hours i love that thing - photo booth: this one barely counts as a minigame bc theres not much interaction but its just really cute i love it. i love it so much. - comedy duo: this ones unlocked through a substory but basically the premise is that some guy's comedy partner walked out on him so the pov character offers to help out instead. the goal is to pick the funniest response and have the best comedic timing, so its mostly just how fast you can read + react, but its really silly and i love it so much - movie theater: the goal for this one is to make sure that ichiban doesnt fall asleep bc the movies are insanely boring so its basically just a pure reaction based minigame, but what i really love about it is that he can take his friends with him and theres certain movies that they'll really love and theyll get so excited and its soooooo cute. But make sure you pay attention to whats going on because they WILL be sad if you dont remember - miss match: ill have to be honest putting ichiban on an online dating app is quite possibly like the funniest premise for a minigame and its just. SO SILLYYYYYYYY its so silly and im beyond obsessed with it. i struggle because im still trying to learn the ps remote inputs but its so funny i cannot lie to you i love it - mahjong: Look man you already know i love mahjong. MAHJONG FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she got me into yakuza anyways so i could never hate her

least favorite: - batting: dude i hate the batting cages. honestly the least favorite list would be a lot longer if i tried 100% all of these games but since the only one im doing rn is y0... Well i have a lot of hatred in my heart for some of these games. anyways back to the point my reaction speed is not great and the gold rushes truly put me through something abominable. HATE BATTING CAGES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - golf: Genuinely i feel like this game just hates me in every way even following the guides i literally cannot get the ball to go where i want it to go ever and its such a miserable wretched time and I HATE GOLF I HATE GOLF IIII HATEEEE GOLFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - koi koi: My koi koi trauma. dude i spent so long trying to get the koi koi completion point for y0 it was truly embarrassing. part of that was because i didnt realize you could double the bet or whatever in the settings but also the other part of it was that i think the game just kind of hates me. Once you figure out the yaku though its not as bad but still. - blackjack: this one really isnt even fair because its entirely my fault but i spent so long trying to get the y0 blackjack completion point and couldnt get anywhere because you can only win pittance... Or so i thought. Because there was a high stakes blackjack table the whole time like right across the room and i DIDNT REALIZE?????????? But i hate blackjack anyways because im scarred - telephone club: hoenstly its not that hard but its just annoying because im so bad at hitting the right responses and its a game that im so clearly not the target audience for so im like Ok this is stupid. Hate you. WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - ufo catcher: im just really bad at this game in general but ill be honest with you the ufo catchers in y5 are genuinely evil and out to get you. Remember this. - cabaret club (gaiden and onwards):

[carmenized-onions]

alright yo!! I gotta do this while it’s hot and fresh! I just read ch 11 and BRO, I didn’t know what was gonna happen cause I don’t think lmao but GOD was this ch soooooo good. (and yes good, i’m a it hurts so good type of BITCH so believe me when I say youve MASTERED THAT FUCKING GENRE AND I WOULD EAT YOUR WRITING IF I COULD 🥹🥹)

i could genuinely go on for days and days about how good— no fuck it, GREAT, your writing is but for times sake i’ll say this, it AMAZES me how fucking ughhhh, on the nail your writing is for each of these characters,,, like like richie??? oh you’ve got richie down!! and carmen (meanie carmen who hurt tony’s feelings and possibly broke her heart just now 🥹) i mean of course you got carmen down, but syd?? you both make her possible to envision saying and acting these ways while also showing her in this new light, a best friend type of light like how would she ride for the ones she loves type of light? and a i’m just a girlllll in the worldddddd with my bestie type of light like you ATE TS ALLLLLL THE WAY UP 😭

anyways i’ll give you my play by play notes i took while reading cause they speak for themselves lmao:

- fuckkkkk their writing is so fucking good

- they got richie’s character down so fucking OMG

- DONT YOY DARE SAY THAT TO RICHIE!!!

- and don’t you DARE say that to chippie!!!!!!! 😠🔪🔪

- how tf have they mastered the art of making not only real characters but REAL moving relationships in their writing and omg i’m gonna fucking cry bro

- also why’s tony’s character like me?? but also someone i want to be ?? but also someone i want to deeply tend and care for?? ugh the COMPLEXITIES 😭😭

- lowkey so much more interested in tony’s character and how it interacts with carmys (and truly everyone’s but syd n richie r my fav) versus his character on his own and its not cause his character writing isn’t good, MY GOD ITS IMMACULATE and feels so RIGHT but they really put their foot in the curation of tony’s character and world that im so HOOKED

- and don’t get me fucking sSTARTED on syd and tony’s relationship like????

- inky?????

- squid????

- we are just two girlssssss living in this worlddddd

- wowwwww i wish i had real life versions of richie n syd as my friends cause it’s giving we are girlbosses but also tender hearts club?? iykyk🤞🏽

- i would quite literally cry and die over this series a million times over and probably already do when i think about it but i wish i didn’t just finish that chapter cause i so so so SO selfishly NEED MOREEEEE 😖😖

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ANYWAYSSSSS this series is quite literally the cake frosting and cherry on top to my fucking life rn and your world building is so great i live in it even when it’s being built still and we’re all waiting for you to drop another one of your deliciously written chaps. i’m so grateful to have found this lil side of the internet you exist in and thank you for supplying us with this consistent dose of yumminess!!

thanks for listening to me absolutely YAP and just know if voice memos was a thing you’d probably be receiving 15 minutes worth of me yapping so count your blessings todayyyy!!!

ALSO ALSO PLEASE PLEASE PRETTY PLEASE ADD ME TO THE TAG LIST 🥹🥹🫶🏽

luv uuuuuuuu n keep being great ����

THANK YOU FOR SAYING I'VE MASTERED THE HURT GENRE-- I also like the hurt, I was worried i didn't get the hurty enough. I'm glad everyone went "i'm so hurt" after reading 10/11, I did hurty all of you. my bad.

This is just gonna be a lot of me saying thank you over and over, but THANK YOU! I try very hard to nail these characters. I think there's fully notes in my drafts saying "HE HAS TO DO THAT. IT'S GONNA FUCKING SUCK TO WRITE BUT IT'S WHAT HE'D DO SO HE HAS TO DO THAT" Everyone that thinks I'm a cool good writer would throw up if they saw what the draft looks like LMAO.

Syd's been very fun for me to write, because with Richie/Carmen I think in canon we've seen enough of them handling friendships/partners to understand how they work in those dynamics-- But Syd does not have girlfriends. Like that bitch has no one. I'm so broken about this. So envisioning how she'd work in that dynamic while still being herself has been very fun for me. Based on the way she acts in Season 3, I think I got it p down. She's a witty fun gworl who's also a bad bitch who also has anxiety. I love her.

IN YOUR NOTES, I REALLY AM SO HAPPY TO HEAR YOU WANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT TONY IN THIS UNIVERSE. I really did stick my fucking foot in implementing her in everything lmao. She's SO carved in. Which I love-- Apparently Carmen hates that but i love. I could smooch tony so much better frfr.

Richie/Syd/Chip have been genuinely my favourite trio dynamic to write for. Everytime it's been Carmen/Syd/Chip he has a tendency to just shut the fuck up because he's very wallflowery-- I love that Richie will interject without even a percent of hesitation. I love my yapping father. I love how he just be talkin.

I HOPE YOU LIKED THE CHAPTER AFTER THIS ONE TOO!! Something to Do was a doozy and this next one is . i'm not gonna say anything except i. am . sorry....

AND ADDED TO THE TAGLIST YEEHAW THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME YOUR THOUGHTS IT MAKES MY GDANG DAY SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG TO GET TO RESPONDING !!!

[cetaceans-pls]

I AM SCREAMING CRYING BAWLING BECAUSE MY ASK INSPIRED YOU TO DO A THIRD THURSDAY UPDATE???? Maybe the world is good again and I have hope that things will be better again and you did that for a random stranger in her random corner of the planet!!!!! Insane in the membrane is what I am rn because this legitimately made me so so so so so so so so happy!!!! We will get to where we want to be!!!!! (Funny thing is, for me maximum happiness was 2021-2022 because I’d finally gotten into my groove in college and then I graduated and dang life is a bit rough man)

Also I’m stupidly smiling at the line “it does matter that he doesn’t look like his Jason, it’s Jason and that makes him HIS Jason” this stupid man and his unerringly loving possessiveness of every Jason in the multiverse. I don’t know why but that line hit so good.

Bruce getting teary eyed at the thought of being loved by his man for decades to come when he sees that ring?????You almost made ME cry at these two!!! (Also JASON HES NOT GOING TO THINK “hm maybe I like older men” HE LIKES OLD MAN JASON BECAUSE HES YOU!!!!!)

Sorry for freaking out in your asks, I do not have an ao3 account, and uh I have anxiety~ posting on non anon. (ONE DAY I might finally gather the courage to join the jaybru sever, because I have sent you many a loving anon over the past few years, and have read your works so so so so often)

I truly truly hope you have a wonderful incredible fantastic week ahead!!!!!

hello anon! i'm so glad you enjoyed the story so, the concept of older jason is already Aaa but the concept of an older jason to middle-aged bruce nearly had my head Explode it's just So Good. they're soooo messy they're sooooo invested in each other they're soooooo hopeless about it :')

Also JASON HES NOT GOING TO THINK “hm maybe I like older men” HE LIKES OLD MAN JASON BECAUSE HES YOU!!!! <- jason's like you say this but REALLY what if it's the thinning hair and the preponderance of heartburn..... meanwhile bruce on the flipside being like if jason had a lover his own age he wouldn't be alone now :((((((

no need to apologise, i find it a little funny that i end up writing so much brujay bc alongside kuro's influence i inexplicably get brujay asks more which get the juices really flowing, which is always fun for me. thank you for being an ardent admirer over the years, and i'm genuinely so glad the latest update got you good ;) i'm coming to the tail end of my cold, so i'm feeling great. have a good weekend ahead!

[1d1195]

i genuinely think it’s the sweetest thing ever that you worry about your anons when they’re gone for a while and even sweeter that you do call out posts :(( you truly are just like an angel, sam. 

i saw post on instagram a while ago and it was like “me becoming best friends with a girl online because we both loved harry styles” and i just think it’s so @1d1195 blog coded. this is such a safe space i love it🥹

TIME DOES FLY !!! WHY DO KIDS GROW UP SO QUICCKKKKK ?!??!??!?! i was just talking to my niece the other day and i was like “…hold up🤨 weren’t you just a baby?!! like they literally just brought you home from the hospital wdym ???😭” it’s literally not fair. i genuinely have no idea how i’d cope and handle that if i were a parent. i’d be sobbing 24/7. 

protection and traditional are such works of art, you should win an award for them. like they should be in your portfolio, no lie. the writing, the backstories for the characters, the DRAMAAA, THE PLOT TWISTS!! theyre beautiful and gorgeous works of art, wonderful showcases of your talent, and their deserve their flowers and more. i also have a soft spot for “Made to be” because its the story that brought me here and they are just soooo precious🥹💕 

soooooo much fun to find a song to hyper fixate on and just have playing 24/7. life is good when i’ve got a new favorite song. THESE PAST TWO DAYS IVE BEEN LISTENING TO “and the government too!” by Jeremy Zucker and Chelsea Cutler and its the sweetest, cutest song ever. i’d heard a few songs from their new album bc i always loved when they collared but then i came across a video on my fyp where he was talking about this particular song in an interview and how it’s about his wife (who i’m pretty sure is from Australia) and how all they wanted to do was be able to be together and live in the same city, but visa processes (aka the government) were a nightmare and keeping them apart and how horrible that was. i thought it was soooo adorable and ive loved it ever since. especially since i had to watch a lot of people in my family go though that process, my older siblings all married people from our home country and i’ve like witnessed it and how long, drawn out, and draining it is and how it separates people/families who literally just want to be together. 

(my favorite part is the second verse “Did you know that the continents sliding?//In ten million years, we're colliding//At least we won't have to be flying” TELL ME THATS NOT THE CUTEST THING EVER)

ok, first of all, not a weird note to end on dw abt that, and i feel like i kinda of understand what you’re talking about. i love that you’re taking care of yourself more! i've always wanted to get into pilates, i should def be more active i’m so lame. the part about needing someone like you is so unbelievably real. i'm not sure if this is exactly what you meant, but being around so much negativity is draining and i know that the biggest help for me these past few months when my family drama was at an all-time-worst and everyday was just suffocating and depressing bc of all the problems, and me trying to help and be useful and optimistic but literally no use comes out of it, it sucked, and i’ve never been much of a talker (as bella swan once said; “i’m more of the suffer-in-silence type”) but i have a friend who i know i can say anything to and she would understand and comfort me and let me vent as long as i need. it’s actually crazy how much talking and getting things off your chest (writing absolutely helps with that as well, i used to journal all the time and im thinking of getting back into that) like i know that’s so obvious and im not trying to come here and act like im teaching you something new or giving you life changing advice when IM NOT😭 but i do know that for me, i always tend to forget all that and isolate myself and have myself totally convinced that im the only person feeling things ever (how self-centered🙄) when its not like that at all. and sometimes, you just need some distance from everyone, some fresh air, a good coffee, and a happy playlist. 

dont let anyone bring you down girl, you’re so amazing. do u know how great you’ve got to be for your heart and your kindness to shine through a screen?? pretty darn great, which you are. if someone is not giving you the same energy you’re giving them, they’re lame and they don’t deserve your time and attention, so give it to those who love you and show it, or better yet, save it for yourself. you’ve always deserved it more anyway. 

all this to say, i hope your buttload of big things lessens severely, continue focusing on yourself, let the little things go, and if you ever feel like no one in your life gets you and/or is just too overwhelming with their own stuff, just know you’ve got an army of anons (me included, duh) who would ride at dawn for u at a moment’s notice

you’re so special, super duper loved, and an absolute sweetheart. LOVE YOU SAM <33333

~🎶

You're so sweet 💕

AHHH 1d1195 blog coded. It ABSOLUTELY is. I have a few friends I've made here because of Harry. I even have a friend outside of tumblr (in the physical world if you will) who I stole from another friend because we both love Harry.

AHHH that's so funny and kind of you 💕 I loved Traditional so much, I think many people asked for it to be in book form at the time I wrote it. I'm so glad you think it deserves being in a portfolio. I I still love Made to Be because I think it brought MANY people to me (so it's extra lovely it brough you here as well!) but I don't like parts of it much anymore. I feel like some of it's very cringey, but I'm so glad you like it 💕

Yeah the visa process is no joke. So stressful and I feel so bad the same as you. I'll have to give the song a listen. It sounds lovely 💕💕 THAT IS THE CUTEST THING EVER I'm 😭

I got the Better Me app it's pretty easy overall and accessible. I'm always pressed for time so all the workouts hover around ~30 mins. You're NOT lame. It's so hard to exist and take care of yourself. I haven't done pilates in several days because I can't get a minute to myself. BELLA SWAN. Idk if I'm a suffer in silence kind of person. I feel like I tell a lot of people about me and my feelings but I feel like it doesn't really do much... Maybe they just can't help. I don't know. It's hard. Idk what I want from it. Clearly I love writing. It def helps me a lot. You're not coming off any way but helpful 💕 I feel like I need a vacation to myself 😅

You're so sweet I'm very emotional right now and I def teared up reading the stuff about my energy you're so lovely 💕

ME TOO. GIVE A BITCH A BREAK PLEASE I know my anons are so lovely and I'm so grateful for you and everyone else who loves me blindly 💕

LOVE YOU!!!!

xoxo

[doesntseeyourbeauty]

Heyyyy 👻🥰

I'm okay, just tired! But, tomorrow's a city holiday and I get to stay home.

I hope you're well too! 🤍🤍🤍

Hehe I was catching up with Ali Hazelwood and I read love, theoretically and love on the brain. I'm now on my way to continuing my other books for this year and I'm reading the night circus. I'm very excited!

Yes, that's exactly how I do things. Even edits. Sometimes I think I might try using a certain colour, but halfway through things I end up changing it because it just doesn't seem right for me.

Aaaah thank youuuuu!!!! Can't wait!!! 😁😁😁

Oh, that seems like the experience!!! So cool that everyone is being so nice and having so much fun at the theatres. As much as they did at the shows!!! It's so cool. Makes my heart so happy! I'm sorry about that. I've had some trouble with love recently too. It's tough, but you're tougher and amazing and you'll be doing so well!

That's such a great take on it!!!!

Omg Elizabeth that muppet twilight is so funny!!! Shortbreadward! 😂😂😂😂

I agree!!! She's such a genius, she was definitely born to be a songwriter, a storyteller!!!

Trueeeee! Why are people like that, why must they know everything? 😅

Aww you guys are adorable, but also very relatable!!! 🤍🥹🤍🤍🤍🤍

I have something to post on the 21st, but I haven't been able to finish everything I want to send to you, so there'll be a little delay on that. I'm sorry. I hope it's okay. 🤍🤍🤍

hi! i feel the being tired part, i did not want to go into work today... that sounds amazing! i took a personal day last friday for the eras tour movie so i have to go to work tomorrow but it's casual friday so i'm gonna wear my karma is a cat hoodie!

ooooooooooo, i love reading, but i typically stick to fantasy, but i'm a sucker for a good romance book too! i've been re-reading some of my favorites and remembering why i love them so much!

i 100% feel that, color is such an important thing to me and i'm so picky with how my bracelets look, even though they're super basic! I LOVE SEEING PEOPLE'S EDITS BECAUSE I AM NOT THAT TALENTED!!!! a lot of my blog is queued edits that i love so so much and want to share with everyone!

when is your show? i remember when i was getting closer to my show, it was so unbelievable that it was coming up so fast. i got my tickets in december and i was like "i have so much time!" and then bam! it was july and time for my show. it's also soooo surreal to be at the stadium just waiting in anticipation, hearing the pre-show music, I miss it everyday!

agreed! apparently some people on tiktok (heard this from a coworker) that people were watching saw and the theater next to them was taylor which i died laughing about! it was genuinely so much fun and it was just amazing to get to see everyone from young kids to adults in their 40's+ there for taylor, it truly shows her wide variety of fans!

I'm glad you like it!!!! I found it by accident once when I was stoned and I about died from laughing so hard! There's like a whole series on YouTube too!!

She 100% was!!! I can't imagine my life without taylor and her music in it, so i'm very grateful to have her as a part of my life for the last 17 years!

i have no idea but it's really weird to me! It's kinda like everything with taylor right now and I'm just sitting here like "as long as taylor is happy idc who she dates or what they're doing every waking moment" but i've always been like that!

Thank you! I need to get them their halloween costumes (winnie is always a bat) but I need to find something that'll fit kayla, she's got a big chest lol

oh no worries!!! please take your time if you need, i completely understand! I've been slacking a little bit with my swiftie halloween gift and I feel soooooo bad but life's been hectic for me recently! thank you so so much for taking the time to chat with me and for creating an amazing gift for me, I'm sure I'll love it! <333333

I hope that you have an amazing day tomorrow and get lots of sleep and cuddles! <3

[polyhexian]

Soooo happy to have picked her up for $80 lol. It's a collector item so it doesn't ever sell loose. It's a third party figure. I DO actually like the original better, but-- I literally got a discount of $50 because it was the display model.

This is the arcee version! They both have these wings but I think they probably come with the accessories that I didn't get because display. I thought that only included hands and extra boobies and some stuff like that, but hey, I still would have bought it. they look cool in the photos, but I strongly suspect they don't look nearly as good in person.

Okay so the big thing is that when Nicee (the name for the arcee lol) was first released (and I remember when that happened) it actually had a super different look. Third party toys usually visually match the characters they're representing very closely. They don't actually really do a lot of unique stylization; probably why I like the iron factory girls so much. But here's the original Nicee:

Is that not a FASCINATING look? That IS meant to be arcee. I think it's generally kind of brave to try to do something with a unique look in this space.

That's all separate from the sexy stuff but that stuff is genuinely worth commenting on I think, it IS an interesting piece. I think the massive titties are truly funny like it's so tacky, this thing is tacky and funny but also really pretty and a nice figure and the combination of those things makes me adore it. so yeah if I could pick any version it would be the original, I wanted one as soon as it came out and tbh I would STILL buy one, even having elita, but it also did noooot go over well. I saw a lot of talk about how it just didn't look right to tf fans, it didn't look like a tf, thats not arcee, blabla. So I wasn't surprised when the released a new one with the changes. But I'm glad the elita has that weird smooth anime face. I find it endearing.

Another interesting third party sort of thing I picked up is this beast box. I do really love beast box, they're a bit pricey but I understand why. A boar or warthog is not the kind of animal I'd usually buy, but the person who sold it to me was actually there vending music, and I have been seeing them at big shows for a decade now. I talk to them all the time. I've bought some lovely cds from them. I asked about it and she told me that the show runners of botcon gave it to her- or, them, they both got one- and it was a botcon exclusive version with the colour palette. And I love myself exclusives lol, I mentioned it and said I love beast box toys, I have one of the very first ones they ever made but not really any others and she said she'd be happy to sell it to me, and gave it to me for a killer $25. She clearly didn't want it and didn't know what to do with it; it's one of those things where it's like this is too special or whatever to just get rid of but I also don't want it... She seemed relieved to just give it to someone who gave a shit about it, no matter what I was paying for it. So, super happy transaction lol. It's a really fun little oddity

An artist had a bunch of these little pouches based on the cassettes, and one of them was a Howlback!!! She said it was only a sort of spontaneous decision like a couple weeks ago to make a few variants and I am SOOOOOO happy. I also got a shiny sticker of the same thing. Howlback is my favourite transformer and I'm so happy

Another interesting thing is this custom Minerva. It's using a Getaway body with a custom sticker set. And it has two heads, one being a repainted getaway head, but the other is a very real miner a head that is actually VERY rare because it's a mail order exclusive that's in part of a really big expensive set. It's something I basically thought I would not be able to acquire without paying several hundred for the full set. So not only being able to get the Minerva headmaster AND it's on a custom Minerva body- whoo!

I got this as a gift for my boyfriend; it's a commission from Aaron Archer of Liokaiser hehe. He was so nice.

WOOHOO! I have so many girls, god. And some truly SICK ones now. MY full list is 814, but my list is basically anything in my house, but me and Alphonse share our collection. So we count our total together. Or. We are supposed to. If something goes directly to my house he doesn't always catalogue it on his sheet. We should fix that. But he is at 2900 something and I'm pretty sure it just kicked over 3000.

Anyway I hope you all ready to hear me gush lol

[claymotif]

hi luna vitally important question. for all of your ocs if they were inexplicably youtubers what niche youtube subculture would they be a part of

the way u always ask about ALL my guys. i get to sit here and rant about them for 12 hours straight bc theres so many <3

(also im ASSUMING u mean like. a modern day au. like they live in our world. sorry if that's not the case)

aderyn: fashion vlogger. he'd be so annoying too bc the thing is his goal is to show ppl how to dress for their body type but also their level of comfort w/exposure, the weather, the occasion; like he wants ppl to rly think about what they're putting into a fit instead of just following trends. also he's constantly following keldan around like "let me give you a makeover next time ur in town" and keldan refuses. obviously. they have ongoing twitter beef about it so there's actually a surprising amount of fandom crossover

keldan: travel vlogger. like he lives out of a van/rv so he'd do periodic van tours, show off where he's staying, what he saw, etc. he always posted the videos like two weeks after he was actually there so no one could predict where he was going next. sometimes he does campsite reviews but they're all super vague like "the views were great! bathrooms were kinda gross if ur not a fan of bugs" and everyone's like "what does that mean. how many bugs were there". his viewership is all ppl who romanticize vanlife but would never actually do it.

melati: cafe reviews. luckily she lives in like... nyc or some other large city so there is no shortage of cafes to visit. she'll do repeat visits to cafes if she likes them or if they're the type to do seasonal specials or change their menu a lot. she's also active on tiktok where she does "what to order at starbucks" and it's those insane drink modifications that no reasonable human being would ever actually order. (except if you did for some ungodly reason actually order them, they'd be pretty fuckin good.)

seia: not actually on youtube. he shows up one day on keldan's channel and it's like... kind of extremely obvious that the two of them are traveling together but it's not like he shows up in every single place they visit (is keldan just not filming him? is he really not there? no one knows) and also the two of them never clarify their relationship (also true to canon) so comments are like "theyre dating for sure" "uh you can't just assume that" "theyre sleeping in the same bed tho?" "maybe seia has his own van" "it's homophobic to imply that they're just friends" "can't we just have rep for non-toxic male friendships?" etc etc. seia screenshots the best ones and sends them to the sky sea gang's discord server.

delwyn: daily vlogger, but it's clickbait-y shit like "i almost died doing parkour today" and then u watch it and he actually DID almost die and ur like. how did yt allow this to be uploaded. luckily he doesn't do any of the cringy prank stuff but he doesn't need to bc he's cringy enough on his own. the secondhand embarrassment is so real but he has a ton of followers anyway bc ppl are like "no way how is this guy still alive". it's like watching a train wreck or seeing a car crash. you just HAVE to find out more

chan: chan would have a cooking channel. he'd post recipes and tutorials and stuff and would have a long-running series where he invites other big-name youtubers and tries to teach them how to cook, except theyre always atrociously bad at it and it's funny. 90% of the ppl subbed to him don't cook, don't know how to cook, have never and will never try any of his recipes (even tho he'd make it SOOO easy for beginners) they literally just think he's funny and like to listen to his jokes. there's a small minority of ppl who do try his recipes and post rave reviews on their tumblr blogs about him. he never sees them bc he doesn't use tumblr

junhee: junhee would inexplicably have one of those asmr craft channels. i like to think he's really dedicated to those paper theaters (exhibit a, exhibit b) so most of his content is making those (he does a lot from scratch, zero pattern/template etc, but he also does requests for pokemon cards and stuff like that as well as theme requests. if someone requests like a ghibli movie or maybe a minecraft inspired one he'll take that into account. he's got a whole list he's working through). but he also sometimes does mini diorama stuff (exhibit a, exhibit b). those are extremely rare uploads bc theyre so time and resource intensive but ppl go crazy for them. he's got almost a million subs even tho ppl have never seen his face or heard his voice. he rarely even replies to comments. it's literally like he just logs in to upload a video and leaves again. no one's gonna say he's their fave youtuber or anything but no one hates him that's for sure

sasha: sasha would be a daily vlogger. just like here's my life etc. except they still work in a hospital/medical care so the vlogs are supremely censored bc of hipaa and other privacy policies and also bc some of the stuff they do on the daily is actually gross and would get taken off youtube. they have like max 6k subs but those 6k subs are dedicated. they love sasha's content and are like genuinely invested even tho sasha's extremely vague all the time

hana: hana would literally be one of those tech review vloggers. she gets free stuff and sponsorships etc from cutting edge companies and startups. microsoft sends her care packages. she has like a billion subs. it's like 63% male viewership so she says it's only bc they think she's mildly attractive but all the comments sections are ppl genuinely interested in her reviews and opinions. healthiest yt comment section on the planet no joke

kei: SUPER into astrology. she posts videos like "how to interpret your daily horoscope" and "what mercury in retrograde means for YOU". but she's actually more into tiktok where she does vids like "zodiac signs as vines" and "zodiac songs as hit 1999 singles" etc etc. has a cult following that takes everything she says super seriously even tho she herself is like "guys it's not that serious"

other fun trivia:

junhee has a tumblr that's totally untraceable to his yt account. the last time he reblogged a post was in 2016 and he only uses it to find the recipe reviews ppl post about chan's channel.

the tsh main trio have a weird poly thing going on. they're not out about it but junhee's guested on chan's channel ("this is my bf junhee", zero mention of said bf having a yt channel bc that's how junhee prefers it) and there are brief glimpses of delwyn's filming through the apartment where ppl see the kitchen and are like "isn't that....?" somehow delwyn always sees those comments and replies "idk who this chan guy is :/" and no one can tell if he's being serious

in this universe sasha and hana are madly in love because there's no "you literally killed my brother" "well he came back didn't he?" conflict to tear them apart. they're so gross and mushy about it. sasha catches hana in their vlogs, they do unboxing videos together, and every time they kiss or are generally in love on camera ppl post fan edits on twitter like "omg they're so in love" "get you someone who looks at you like hana looks at sasha" etc.

no one knows hana and kei are friends until they both show up in one of sasha's vlogs. the entire internet explodes bc the whole jokey rivalry their fandoms have built up ("theyre so different they wouldn't get along if they knew each other irl") just crumbles.

if seia DID have a youtube channel it would be asmr bullet journal/calligraphy stuff. also stationery-from-aliexpress unboxing videos. but his current lifestyle (driving across the country in a van with his not-boyfriend) doesn't really suit the stationery hoarding thing. so.

keldan finally agrees to let aderyn give him a makeover and then they DON'T FILM IT. keldan films exactly one video with the Look that aderyn puts together for him and then never does it again. everyone is freaking out about it

[raytorosaurus]

funny how everyone says boy division is their fave when spotify play counts for light behind your eyes and world is ugly are higher. also boy division is overrated (i love it but i'll die on the hill that everyone is just blinded by it being an upbeat opening track) (tomorrow's money is far superior to boy division) (and number five is the best of the collection)

lol i can see why those two from number three have a lot of streams from more casual fans because they have like...'sing-alongable' lyrics and are that classic kind of palatable angst yk, but boy division is very solidly the fan favourite in more dedicated bandom circles. and yeah i kinda agree sjdkgl - tho i hesitate to call things overrated bc often ppl take it to mean "i don't like it just because it's popular" when in this case i really mean i do love boy division and think it's a great song but just genuinely don't understand why it's this much more popular than the rest of cw, you know? (poll here)

i do get that it's really fun and that they played it a lot this tour and we were all excited about that together so that makes it more fun - what i don't get is why they played it so much this tour (i.e. why it was so loudly a fan favourite above all the others before then). it just really surprises me that it was The most played song besides the every-show staples, with the single exception of mama. look in your heart is it truly anywhere near as good as mama </3 (stats from this awesome awesome spreadsheet by @onedaythisday)

i know that sometimes things are fun to love because they're loved - like it's much more fun to be really hyped up about them playing a "deep cut" fan favourite when everyone can lose their minds in excitement together, i totally get that. a similar thing happens with heaven help us imo. boy division and heaven help us - both really great songs that i love, but which have a reputation of being the stand-out "best" from their respective collections that i don't understand. tomorrow's money is by far my favourite on conventional weapons - of course personal taste accounts for a lot but i do genuinely believe that if any song on cw could be called underrated and truly hold up against their best stuff, it's tomorrow's money. it's lyrically and musically much more interesting than a lot of cw, the production is really fun, the breakdown and distorted screams scratch my brain soooooo good, and it really plays on mcr's strengths as a dual guitar band with a ray toro up their sleeve lol. i also think kiss the ring is a lot more interesting than boy division and sooo fun but they didn't play that one at ALL :( again, just my taste - i defs get boy division being people's fave, just struggle to understand why it's considered such a singular standout.

my actual unpopular cw opinion is that i think surrender the night is a bottom tier mcr song JSDKFLSDF sorry anon. bottom tier mcr already puts them at better than most other songs out there at least. i definitely appreciate it wayyyy much more now after seeing the live version where it actually feels like the guitars are doing something interesting (it might actually have been promoted to second-bottom-tier actually) but the studio version feels kinda flat to me. also imo gerard shot himself in the foot by saying it sounded something geoff rickly would write because if it was a thursday song it would sound better SDKLGJSDKLGJLDS. but that's just me tho i understand why people like it. number one (tomorrow's money and boy division) is probably my fave overall, tho number four (kiss the ring and make room) comes close. then five because burn bright slaps hard.

[in-silks-and-flesh-and-leather]

Darling Silky! I was just referred to your chapter update of The Bear and the Maiden Fair on AO3. I don’t have an account there so I can’t comment on it and wanted to send my comment here!

I loved it as always! That is now the longest Jacques story of quality out there and I love every word! it’s such a wonderful piece of storytelling and world building that so few people have the patience to write! Let alone the capacity to think up and the skill to carry off! That, Ubi Amour, Malocchio, and A Lady Worth Fighting For by the other Jacques authority @safarigirlsp are my favorite ongoing chapter stories. Period. Not currently, but that I’ve ever read. And the oneshots you both have with him are phenomenal! I love that such fine authors are doing him proper justice!

I loved so much about this chapter! The chess game was a lovely touch! As was his being too tired for his cape twirling! I loved their pillow talk with him explaining the nice guy illusion to her! He’s so right too! Give me a Jacques over a puny nice guy any day! I love that he’s showing his loyalty and commitment to her through his actions instead of just flowery words and that he’s willing to fight for her! I can’t wait to see what happens when he returns from battle! The ending with her having a hard time getting a kiss had me laughing! I loved it all!

And the preceding chapter with the party and his dream! I can’t remember if I commented, again because of the AO3 issue, but I adored it!

Thank you for sharing your immense talent! 💛💛💛

Ohh, what's that?

An angel from heaven swooping down to touch my heart and make my whole day?

😭😭❤️❤️

Thank you so much, my dear, you know it means the world to hear from you and have that endless Jacques love echoed - it's what keeps me writing 💕

And you totally nailed all my favorite moments! 🤩

The chess game was so fun, I love how he handled it 😄 And it's totally my new HC for him that the way to tell he's actually despondent is that he doesn't do the cape twirl 😂

And the Nice Guys observation! That's exactly how I thought of it - it was an important character moment for me to include that and I hope it served to sober up some readers too. It's true then and now - the men who are successful with women really tend to like them and have genuine fun with and affection for them, unlike the guys who mean to barter surface-level kindness for whatever else.

The plot thickens now with some actual danger lurking, that's always fun! And I have a few things planned that I hope will manage to be surprising and interesting 😄

I am soooooo ready for the inevitable love fest between the unstoppable force Le Gris and immovable object RC ❤️❤️

I am so grateful for your generous assessment of the story and my ability; that truly leaves me speechless and turns my emotions to 11 💕💕 You are absolutely wonderful for taking the time to leave a beautiful ask like this, it means everything 😍😍

[scara-meow-che]

OKAY GOOOD CUZ MY MIND IS B L O W I N G U P wishing i would be blowing something else as well but oh well

EXPECT THIRSTS LATER TODAY CUZ MY MIND IS KINDA SOOO FULL BUT ALSO SOOO EMPTYYYY

but for now, luc and zhongli are def the type to enjoy a nice soft cuddle fuck with you in the morning before work!

luc would act a lil grumpy but hes enjoying it soooooo much and his cheeks are the same shade as his pretty hair you had so much fun pulling, the entireeee day!

Zhongli would just genuinely smile though-out the whole cuddle fuck! he just loves u so much and seeing u giggle and moan while having you so close to him is just so nice!! he loves you so much he doesnt even know what to do with all this adoration and passion he hasnt felt for someone else in sooooo long

well childe too but he would be he type to pull u agaist his morning wood and pull a quickie before he gets up and runs out the door cuz hes late for work! he would tease you and def hold your back against his chest while sloowly fucking into you (licking ur earlode and being reaalll annoying) the cuddle fuck turns into something else when you decide youve had enough of this teasing and flip him around so your sitting on his dick and hes below you, you choose to be nice and not edge him for too long like he did you and just 'get it over with!' (you act like youre just purely annoyed but oh how you love his annoying cocky smile!)

childe's stuck thinking of you the entire day, in a horny sense but also with love in his eyes that everyone cant help but notice! he truly is in love

-🍙 NONIE WITH LOVE ♡!

okay, woo, i needed to compose myself for a second, dear lords.

honestly, luc just wants to spend more time with you but work keeps pulling himself back :(

so he needs to have something engraved in his mind while he's out so of course, he would definitely be into morning sex. ah, just feeling his warm and hard cock inside of you, just thrusting from your back, arms wrapped around you, him leaving kisses on your neck, marking you his own, just cumming deep inside you and focused on the way your walls clamped down on him 💞💞

and zhongli, our next lover boy, is always into passionate sex. he would want to see your face, just enjoy how your lips would part to moan out his name with want, how you only desire him, fueling the love in his heart. he is the king of after care so prepare to have a warm bath with him as he massages your scalp, have you relac in his arms 💞💞

and childr, this lovable asshole, i fucking love him oh my god you all don't even know how much i want to be teased by him, i will forgive him. cuddle fucks are honestly just an indication he's into some kinky shit. he starts off romantic, tease you, rile you up, make you act on your desires and had you humping up and down his cock, smiling when he sees your breasts bouncing ip and down as he watches you do the work. you're about to punch him but his cock is too fat, you felt full so it's forgivable.

[leefi]

Starira MBTI II - Siegfeld

These were the most fun to write up.

Seisho

Siegfeld

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Rinmeikan

Michiru Otori: ENFJ

Oh my woof woof...My evil little girlboss. i love you sooooo soooooo so much. Michiru is fake as fuck and soooooo evil and funny. She's the final entry I'm writing because I wanted to save the best for last.

She is the perfect example of how manipulative and conniving Fe doms can be (we even see a teeny tiny bit of this in Nana - see how she tricks Kaoruko into doing work in their My Theatre conversations). Michiru is also a visionary - she has a very distinct plan for the future that she’s always working towards (aux Ni), but you’d never guess that about her at first glance. She works very hard to maintain an affable, easygoing, approachable persona to contrast with Te dom Akira’s more intimidating and domineering one (dom Fe). I can’t say that I’ve seen her use too much of that tertiary Se, but her Ni and Fe are so strong that I have absolutely no doubt that she’s an ENFJ. We definitely see that inferior Ti struggle to catch up with Akira’s dominant Te reasoning for prioritizing Elysion over the Performance Festival, though, because Michiru’s Ni is thinking so far--too far, she comes to realize--ahead.

I could talk more about how smart and pragmatic and intuitive Michiru is, but we’d be stuck here all day. She’s my evil little girlboss, yes, but she also cares for her friends so much. At the end of the day, she’s an Fe dom, and that mastermind auxiliary Ni comes second - everything she does is to uplift and benefit the people around her. That dominant extroverted Feeling is what allows her to pick up on Akira’s potential from that day in their childhood - and auxiliary Ni instantly begins setting a plan into motion for how to get there. Why doesn’t Michiru try for the throne herself, then? Well, maybe there’s some deep-seated insecurity towards Akira and their relationship that we’re not seeing. It has always intrigued me so much as to why she prefers to work in the background. It would be fine if she truly preferred to stay in the shadows - that’s a normal thing for a lot of people to want, and they thrive there. But I’ve always had the feeling that isn’t quite the case for her…Sometimes she says things that make me think she desires more.

But again, she’s an Fe dom - her mind is geared towards thinking about other people, about what’s best for the group. And we see that once more when she’s perfectly poised to win the Arcana revue against Shiori, when she flippantly remarks at the start that there’s no way in hell that she’s losing to her - but then she sees how hard Shiori is trying, the potential she has to succeed her the role of Frau Saphir one day, how much she’s grown and come into her own and found a cause to fight for, while Michiru is is too far stuck in the future...and dominant Fe stamps that conniving auxiliary Ni down, and she rips off her own jacket for her kouhai.

Akira Yukishiro: ESTJ

Funnily enough, the “extroverted” ESTJ actually tends to be a bit more socially reserved than their “introverted” ISTJ siblings - this is because ESTJs have Feeling in their inferior slot, while ISTJs have it in their Tertiary (compare her to ISTJ Junna, who as a class leader actively goes out of her way to interact with the other girls and make sure everyone’s included, while Akira bothers herself only with the Edels). ESTJ’s extroversion instead manifests in their desire to control, order, and yes, be on top, just like Akira’s ENTJ cousin Claudine. Akira is a Te dom and Si aux, so she’s all about leading by example and doing it by the tried-and-true. This is why she fits so well into the role of the quintessential emperor/king, but as I mentioned with her inferior Fi, doesn’t actually have any charisma beyond what Fe-dom Michiru has manufactured for her (it's explicitly stated that Akira is even more revered than Edels of old - yes, due to her phenomenal and unparalleled talent, but also because Michiru actively works to cultivate an image that makes her untouchable). This is exactly why her relationship with Michiru works so well. It’s only natural that two extroverted judgers aimed for Siegfeld - and absolutely thrive there.

Her tertiary Ne, meanwhile, is why a lot of people (myself included) love her interactions with Yachiyo and Aruru (Ne doms). Akira’s Ne and Fi are weak, but she’s very smart and - contrary to first impressions - isn’t a stubborn person when she trusts the competency of the people around her (Te). And that’s thanks to her Ne. She lives for the stage, it’s her pride and joy, and when she sees people who are doing something that pay ode to it well - whether that’s ENFP Aruru’s excitable and childlike Ne-Fi or ENTP Yachiyo’s more pragmatic and intellectually curious Ne-Ti, she is quick to place her trust in them. Akira surprises the other two school leaders in the event story when she tells them they’d be wise to learn from Karen and Aruru’s senses of wonder, and Yachiyo’s passion for the stage - though wildly different from Akira’s own - is what makes her confident in her decision to pass the throne off to her.

Shiori Yumeoji: ISFJ

A PERFECT example of using dominant Si is when Shiori inhabits the role of the Chariot to draw out the strength and energy she needs during her revue with Michiru - introverted Sensing is all about deriving from past experiences and using them to inform the present!

And she and Tamao are!! The same!! Type!! Which is so interesting to me! ISFJs are so sweet and kind and caring (they and INFPs are actually often mistaken for each other - compare her to Mahiru!) - but there’s an inner fire to them that can be so easy to miss! I can’t think of a single fictional ISFJ I’ve met that didn’t, at some point, become incredibly insane and unhinged! I’m not sure what it is, but if I had to guess I think it’s that inferior Ne showing up, kicking down the door, and going “I’M HEEEEEEEEEEEEREEEEEEE BITCHESSSSSSSSSS”

Anyway - textbook ISFJ. So, so sweet and demure (Si dominant, Fe auxiliary - both are so concerned with standards, group sentiment, how things were done before, how everyone is feeling - so so so accommodating but can end up becoming doormats). We see that Si a lot in her woes towards her sister - “we were supposed to do this, we were supposed to be this,” etc. etc...hell the only reason in the first place that she joins the Edels is because of her original promise with Fumi. Tend to keep their inner thoughts and machinations to themselves (Ti tertiary). Prone to snapping and going insane if they get pushed/bothered too much (Ne inferior) - I legitimately think that Ne is the scariest function to have in your inferior slot. Godspeed, ladies.

Another fun note: she and Yachiyo are polar opposites, something I never noticed until just now. Interesting lmao

Liu Mei Fan: ENFJ

I had to check her PDB page to get her type because I honestly had no clue! She was the most difficult for me! But after seeing her listed as ENFJ I went “...hm?” and then went “oh yeah.”. Because she reminds me of Sonia Nevermind from Dangan Ronpa LMAOOOOO. FORGIVE ME FOR THIS COMPARISON. IT’S NOT BECAUSE OF THE EXCHANGE STUDENT THING!! They just have the same personality type, and it kind of manifests itself in the same way - despite the stereotype being that Fe doms are always very socially conscious and suave, these two are both a quirkier/more awkward type of ENFJ, and at first glance both could pass off as their happy-go-luckier ENFP or ESFP cousins instead...if you’re just looking at the letters. But when you look at their actual functions, they’re both ENFJ as they come! See how different two people of the same type can be?! She and Michiru share a type! Mei Fan is a well-meaning, driven Fe-dom in a strict Si-heavy environment like Siegfeld’s, and it’s SO funny to watch her dominant Fe desperately try to adjust her personality as she goes to fit in properly (while Michiru watches like 🙂 , Shiori is right there with her desperately adjusting (Fe aux), and Yachiyo doesn’t give a shit and does her own thing anyway). Our beloved shimbo has Ti in her last slot which isn’t surprising given her penchant to speak before she thinks, and Se in her tertiary slot which shows up in, again, her physicality (MUSCLEMAN MEI FAN HIGH-INTENSITY JOCK TRAINING IN THE MOUNTAINS). Aux Ni showed itself in that ceaseless determination to become an Edel, and her constant work towards shaping herself into an ideal one to impress Akira (and achieve her own goals in surpassing Akira herself!). Just compare her to dom Ne Yachi, who could care less about any of that stuff and goes her own way.

Yachiyo Tsuruhime: ENTP

“What do I wish for? World peace and happiness for everyone, I guess.” The moment I saw this homescreen quote I knew she was an ENTP - somebody else on her PDB page actually pointed it out too lmao. ENTPs are the “devil’s advocate” type which can lead to ruffling a lot of other peoples’ feathers, but Yachiyo is a bit suaver than that (developed tertiary Fe). Granted, she doesn’t escape the stereotype completely - she has a lot of fun in teasing the Fe-aux and Fe-dom Shiori and Mei Fan respectively, though she would never dare to do the same to Michiru. As we learn through the main story, there’s something that appears insidious about her at first glance - but that’s genuinely all it is, a first impression. She keeps to herself, yes, but Yachiyo’s an actress to the core, and her greatest love is the stage, just like (if not more than) all of the other girls around her. Yachiyo’s unique in that she breaks some of the typical Starira model of seeing her partner as her greatest inspiration - she’s not invested in a person like Shiori is with her sister or Michiru and Mei Fan are in Akira - Yachiyo pursues the stage solely for her own fulfillment and desires. Everything is a curiosity to her (Ne feeding Ti - how can I make sense of this world, and what can I do for myself to gain access to more information and experiences, because I’m always, always hungry for more). Her inferior Si shows up in how much she contrasts Akira, who is an Si-aux - just look at the unconventional way she found to practice her acting (pretending to be a spy snooping on the Edels), compared to Akira’s more conventional methods of stringent, scheduled practice.

[philtatosbuck]

hello, it's me, i've returned. i see a LOT of people criticizing the fact rebekah became friends with cami/davina/hayley but not the girls from tvd (ngl, it's mostly just people complaining she isn't friends with caroline) and apparently they chalk it up to those three being mary sues instead of them having personalities that don't clash rebekah's as violently as caroline does soooooo this is gonna be a post discussing that! it's not necessarily anti anyone, but it's critical of caroline's slut-shaming tendencies.

caroline and rebekah already started off on the wrong foot, and rebekah deliberately antagonized her for fun but even when they were on a neutral ground, they could barely stand each other. caroline made a point of repeatedly slut-shaming rebekah (among other female characters but that's another post) or using klaus' 'feelings' for her against him in order to hurt their family. the ONE moment of decency the two had for each other was when they shared condolences over esther and alaric. the only other time they 'got along' was when matt was around and they didn't get along so much at all, rebekah was being civil while caroline made her dislike of her very clear.

just because they both clearly like to be in control and have 'party planner' tendencies (as that's often a BIG point of people claiming they'd be best friends) doesn't mean they'll automatically get along. in fact, i'd argue that it's a contender for one of the biggest reasons they wouldn't get on as well as people like to think. caroline isn’t very mature during the point in her life where she knows rebekah, and rebekah does nothing but pointedly enrage her even more.

to caroline's credit, she was a teenager, it's whatever. maybe seasons 7-8 caroline (regardless of your opinion of her character at that point) who had matured quite a bit would have been able to get along with rebekah but slut-shaming, immature, shrieking use-klaus'-feelings-for-me-against-him/his family caroline? yeah right.

now let's discuss a few reasons rebekah potentially gets along with hayley, cami, davina, etc.

hayley; let me just say i don't think hayley and rebekah would have sought each other out to be friends if hayley hadn't gotten pregnant. i am acknowledging that they wouldn't run in the same circles or would have made an effort to protect each other, but she did get pregnant, so let's just talk about it. right at that first meeting, hayley establishes herself to rebekah as someone who is blunt, uninterested in petty high school feuds and quite frankly doesn't plan to let klaus control her. she further warms rebekah up to her by giving her the daggers, establishing to rebekah that she understands why she's so upset at klaus and doesn't try to excuse it like elijah so often has. while searching for elijah, they are each other's only allies because neither one of them truly trusts klaus. to hayley, rebekah has established herself as someone who will do anything for her family and will take on any fight, even one against klaus, for the people she loves. i mean, honestly? it kind of explains itself. hayley grew to like rebekah's brash personality despite the fact she "has klaus' manners" because it's clear to hayley that there is MORE to rebekah than just that and rebekah grew to respect hayley as more than just the mother of her niece because hayley was headstrong, she fought for her loved ones just as much as rebekah did and she was well and truly on her side when it mattered. their friendship was built on understanding, begrudging respect and genuine care on both sides.

cami; i'm pretty sure they sort of disliked each other at first? rebekah was jealous of cami because of marcel and cami could kind of tell, feel it out. i actually wouldn't classify them as 'friends' so much as they know each other and care for each other on the basis of them mattering to the people they love. that being said, rebekah clearly likes cami after a certain point and values her in her family's life. i'd argue this is because cami has come to fight for her family despite having no obligation to do so. i'm glad their friendship didn't actually become more to the point of best friends. to me, that would have been unrealistic. i think their "we know each other, and we would fight for each other, but we're definitely the type of friends who never hang even though we could" fits them perfectly. rebekah will ultimately always be a little bit jealous of a special woman in klaus' life as she was the only one for a thousand years (none of the others lasted) but she respects cami to a point where she doesn't bash, antagonize or try to hurt her.

davina; their friendship was.... Shaky at best. but rebekah did see a bit of herself in davina, and even said as much. she ultimately grew to care for her, and truly liked the girl. beyond kol, rebekah is the mikaelson davina "respects" the most (it's ultimately back and forth as hell, but she certainly respects her more than klaus, elijah, finn or freya). they aren't truly close by any means but they are at least openly friendly with each other when they aren't on opposing sides. which again, i think is realistic considering everything that happened with them.

[jellyluchi]

I love shopping for dresses soooooo much shopping with Pros brainrot, most of the times it's him who takes you to try on dresses. But what if you got to make him try in suits and accessories too? Just thought of walking arm in arm through a shopping complex with him sounds so fun, part of the experience is dressing cute and showing each other off to people subtly. Debating between dresses because he likes one color but you like another, or he thinks a sweetheart neckline is better than a square one. It's never serious but it's fun to try on no matter what, he makes you feel like the most beautiful person in literally anything you try on. Maybe it's not dresses, maybe you try seperate skirts and pants, blouses, shirts, tops. But he's not just a yes man, he truly tells you whats most flattering and perfect for your body and in turn you get to see him in different colors, maybe hats and sunglasses, necklaces, and chokers too. It doesn't even matter if you're going to buy them or not (maybe he will insist on buying at least one of the dresses because he's too enthralled with how you look in it) but that you get to spend time laughing and smiling with him by your side. And later when you go to eat afterwards it feels warm as you hold his hand over the table and get to see him laugh genuinely at a silly joke. Maybe you started out sitting quite far from each other but over the course of time you find yourself pressed to his side about to go in for a gentle kiss to end your evening happily.